Things have been better the last few days. We talked and talked and things are fine now. Yesterday we had a long conversation about him making me feel rejected and unwanted. It made me feel a lot better.

I don't want to talk about it anymore... It still makes me sad when I think about the whole situation.

The thing you don't want to hear from your boyfriend: "well uh.. the thing is.. maybe I'm starting to see you as just a good friend."

And he was surprised that I was so upset.

He still loves me, he wants to be with me, he doesn't want to lose me, etc. but he doesn't get turned on that much. I've tried everything the last few months... I don't know what to do anymore. I wish I had a good friend I could talk to but I don't.

Dennis and I went to the zoo yesterday. It had been ages since I last went to the zoo. I especially love the desert part with the strange rats and snakes and other creepy animals. I absolutely hate monkeys. Closeby to where I live there's a zoo with only monkeys but I couldn't imagine why anybody would go there. My grandmother hates monkeys as well so maybe it runs in the family  

I've been trying to turn Dennis on for 3 weeks but I haven't succeeded. We used to have sex almost every day but now we only have sex when he wants to, which isn't often anymore. Why? Everything's still alright between us but he's just not horny anymore. ??? I don't get it. It's not that we haven't had sex for 3 weeks but every move I made resulted in rejection.

Today I asked him what I was doing wrong but he couldn't answer me. He said that I didn't do anything wrong.

I'm afraid that I'm fucking things up.